JennGwynn the penguin from Oregon. This is my personal blog and may include topics such as Jesus, recovery (ed), mental illness (anxiety/depression), body positivity, feminism, etc. Feel free to msg me if you need support!
1. Bodies are not public property. They are private homes. You have no idea what is going on there.
2. Health is not a contest or an appearance.
3. There is nothing positive that comes from judging or shaming another’s body.
4. “Yelling” at strangers on the internet or in life about body type/size/attractiveness is not health activism. It is not about health.
5. Worth is not measured in pounds, in sex appeal or through another’s gaze. You determine your own worth.
6. Autonomy matters.
When I was thirteen
I laid a blanket on the dewy grass of my front yard
I sat down
And I cried.
I cried because I thought I was nothing.
Because life consisted of mostly misery.
My arms were covered in scratches
My body was begging for food
They told me I was nothing more than a girl.
Nothing more than damaged goods.
I believed them.
Now I am seventeen.
I laid a different blanket down on the same dewy grass in my front yard
And I smiled.
It has been
since a razor blade touched my skin.
My body is full of chocolate
because my best friend took me out to dinner tonight.
I graduated high school early.
My second year of college starts in 26 days.
I start my new job on Monday.
(I’ve always wanted to be a barista.)
My internship is going well.
I know now that I am not damaged goods.
A lot can change in four years.
'Eating isn't very Chanel'.
Obviously opposed to the side effects of not eating:
- Hair loss
- Dry skin
- Bruises everywhere
- Hair growing all over your body
- Mood swings
- Lack of energy
- Purple hands and feet
- Heart palpitations
They all sound VERY Chanel to me.
Depression is not being sad about not being able to find an outfit to wear to a party.
It is not changing your clothes for 3 days because you can’t bear to leave the house, let alone get out of bed.
Suicidal thoughts are not wanting to kill yourself because you see someone wearing the same outfit as you.
It’s seeing simple everyday things like rope, a knife, a freeway, or pills and thinking that you should kill yourself with them because you just can’t take the pain anymore.
Anxiety is not just being scared for an exam.
It is not being able to make a phone call or feeling so sick from worry for no reason.
Anorexia is not simply forgetting to eat breakfast.
It is dry skin, hair falling out, hospitals and inner torture. It is forcing yourself to have water instead of food, because even fruit has too many calories.
Bipolar is not being really happy for one day, then feeling normal the next.
It is going from euphoria, having your mind racing with rapid speech, to feeling like you want to jump off a bridge.
Retardation is not doing something silly.
It is falling behind in school, not being able to adapt in new situations and having little social skills.
So please don’t take mental illnesses lightly;
they are one of the heaviest burdens to bear.